Taylor Swift | Baby, Don’t You Break My Heart Slow “But I’d rather you be mean than love and lie. I’d rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye. I’d rather take a blow at least then I would know, but baby don’t you break my heart slow.”
“…in this particular movie (NM), everyone can relate to the events, the story. It was this book that encouraged me to make the movies. I read it before making the first movie. Something about how you fall in love for the first time, especially for a young man. You tend to idealize the girl, your…
“It’s about the very real prospect of falling in love, but in your rearview mirror, seeing all of the times you’ve seen love fail. I think that falling in love isn’t as easy as it seems when you’ve seen love crash and burn so many times in your life. I have a tendency to run from love sometimes, and I think it’s because of that. You know, you see all the times that everybody seems to say good bye, all the time, that sometimes you lose hope that it’s worth fighting for. But I have to have this blind hope and this blind faith in the back of my mind that if you met the right person, it would be worth it to fight for love and to really work through the problems that you would encounter along the way. So I think I’ll always believe that. That it could be worth it.”—Taylor Swift on her song ‘Mine’. (via avidlypink16)
6840.) I'm in love with you; there's no doubt in my mind. I just wish you could see that you hurt me in the past and sometimes it just feels like you don't care. When I hurt you, I never hear end of it. Don't forget what you did is worse. My heart isn't a toy. So please stop toying with it.
Everything was perfect…then my mind decides it needs these questions and these doubts to resurface and just make me worried and unhappy…just as things are so wonderful. I know today…it was my fault, i wish i hadn’t said how i feel…but if i didn’t wouldn’t it make me feel worse? Wouldn’t my questions just linger on and on until i just can’t take it no more? He answers them…just not with the answers i sometimes need, the reassurance perhaps. He doesn’t understand. He gets mad. He gets upset. He leaves. Maybe i’m not good at explaining myself anymore..maybe i never have been, i’m always going to be me…socially awkward and running away when things get too perfect before it all falls to pieces again and i get hurt. Today something felt wrong to me..maybe it was what he said, maybe not talking all day kills me inside, but i can’t tell him that, he’ll never understand they way i feel about us. To me…talking for a few minutes at the end of the day just isn’t enough..i need more, i need him, when i don’t hear from him..i worry he’s forgot about me or he doesn’t care as much as i thought, or he’s not as in love with me as he makes out, or he’s found someone else at school…and he’s so infatuated with them. I do trust him, but why he is with someone like me is still something i will never know. I have too many emotions. I think too much. I’m scared. I’m worried. I am a flight risk with a fear of falling. I just found this, i think this basically sums me up right now. Maybe i have a case of jealousy afterall. I always swore i never would…how stupid i was:
"Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy.”
I love him..beyond love…i fall more in love with him everyday..but i’m not worthy. I’m not good enough.I’m not smart enough. Not pretty enough. Not what he wants. So i let him do his own thing. I don’t contact him…i don’t want to be in his way. I’m just another girl. I’m desperately in love with you.
i told him not to worry about us, and i didn’t want him to worry that i was feeling this way. Nothing was going to happen, i was never going to mention leaving him at all. He mentioned it though.I feel so selfish…he has exams, he doesn’t need this, he doesn’t need me, he doesn’t need to think about me, i told him not to, so he could concentrate tomorrow..but he’ll do good, he always does.
We’re perfect right now. It’s just me, you hadn’t done anything wrong. I just wanted more than what you gave today…after yesterday maybe i’m so attached to you.
I just wish you’d listen to me. I wish you’d see that i miss you every second we aren’t together.
and turn to just, you know…look out my window, but i don’t see darkness..I SEE A BIG ORANGE GLOWY THING, first thing that comes to mind? NO NO UFO, ALIEN ABDUCTION RIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW..calm down a bit..just a chinese lantern.